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Deep Reflection of 2020

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  As 2020 skids to an end, it allows a time of reflection on a year that has thrown the world, not only a curve ball, but into chaos, upheaval, fear and  pain.  2020 had forced change upon this old world, ripping off thick scabs and throwing fuel on an low burning flame.   In this year of crisis, we have had to dig deep in our soul to maintain any sort of “normalcy” in our lives.  What have we learned?  What have we had to let go of?  Where have we grown?  Where have we regressed in humanity?  What values have been hardened or shifted into new perspectives?  What have we realized about the importance of people, things and standards and what is just excess baggage that weighs us down?  From my vantage point, at first, I saw hope and unity emerging from the pandemic.  I witnessed a humanity that realized how similar, vulnerable, and dependent we are on each other.  Not only were our immune systems at risk of a virus, but our lively hoods, our mental health and our human connections be

Careful with Setting Your Intentions

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On January 1, 2020, I sat in front of 20 beautiful souls who gathered inside the sanctuary of Inspired Change Yoga. As I led the class through meditation, asana and guidance on Intention Setting for the new year, I set my intention upon Letting Go. For me, I had held on excruciatingly tight to pain, heartache, self doubt and so much more, for so many years. I had finally come to the place where letting go became my only option. I embodied this intention. I talked about this intention. I wrote about this intention. I meditated on this intention. As the year slowly began, the studio and I grew in the expectations of the brilliance that 2020 would become. This was the year that Inspired Change Yoga was going to make a profit. This was the year that I was focused on my yoga knowledge, my practice and clearing all that no longer served me, creating abundance in those clean, empty corners that were once littered with traumas, heartache and challenges. February became March and fear set in ar

Standing In My Truth

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  I want you to know, I see you. I hear you and I am here for you.   However, I can stand with you, I am there, except in anger.  I have spent nearly a decade of my life in anger and fear.  I can no longer live in anger   It was slowly killing me.  That is why I choose compassion, love, hope and gentleness.  This is who I am and who I choose to be.  You will not find me standing in protest holding a sign. I do not judge those who do. I just do not feel this is where real change takes place.  For six years now, I have dug my heals in deep, kicked and screamed, resisted, held on with all my might, built walls and lived an isolated life. But  I’ve also worked so hard to excavate that pain, and anger.  I have learned to recognize self defeating patterns and behaviors. I have realized how often I backed down and made myself small to lift others up and let them shine. I’ve done a lot of hard self evaluation and soul searching.  Lately, my journey has lead me to a place, I feel, I am called t

Do We Just Let It Burn?

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We all, lately, have witnessed such destruction in our country.  I will never understand why it feels necessary to some to set fires, break windows and loot, in order to protest a horrific event in our world.  Why create more devastation where there is already so much pain. In all of history, when has violence, destruction and war ever, truly helped to change anything? Protesting, letting your voice be heard, carrying a sign stating what is in your heart, writing, talking, having true, deep conversations, and coming together are constructive methods of change.  Through destruction, you destroy another's dream and hard work. Through destruction, often whole communities that are already struggling are damaged or devastated beyond repair, leaving people homeless and scared.  Fear and anger grow with violence.  More wounds are ripped open and infected and more scars are formed. A few local businesses have been hurt by what started out as a peaceful protest. It only takes one volatil

Come Sit Beside Me

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Sit!    Come sit beside me and tell me your pain .  Explain to me what touches you the most!  Show me your scar. Tell me the story of how you got them and then tell me how they have healed thus far.  What have you done to take care of yourself to heal these scars?  Tell me what you think will continue to heal it.  Tell me your dreams.  Tell me what you see for yourself, your children, your grandchildren in the years to come.  Tell me how you are looking deep inside yourself and starting with you to improve the world.  Tell me how we can join hands to take this beyond the deaf ears in the streets.  Sit here beside me, let us make a plan.  Write it down, feel it , really FEEL it, embody it! Imagine that place of peace and healing.  Imagine your grandchildren playing in a park, joyfully, no worries and full of life.  You created this place for them.  Imagine that day and take that pride, peace, change to the world.  What does it look like?  How have you changed?  What does your heart fee

What If?

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What are you doing?  Do you really want to change and grow?  Do you really want to shine that growth into the world?  Are you willing to be vulnerable? We all know we can not change others.  We can not make them see through our eyes, our experiences, and our hearts. We must also acknowledge and realize that we can not negate others experiences. Our experiences create our being, our passions, our growth, and our missions in life.  Even through same experiences, people carry different traumas, lessons, enlightenment and scars.  Just because your scars look different, it does not mean the the impact of one is less or more than the other. What if we each sat down and asked one another about their scars instead of saying "but my scar is worse, deeper, more impactful." What if we listened and offered compassion, understanding, a shoulder to cry upon, a hug, a tear for our friend. Then, what if we asked, "what can I do to help you overcome, grow stronger and help you overcome

When Decluttering Leads to De-Chaos-Ing

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We are all engulfed by a feeling of powerlessness during this time.   A feeling of no control over what is happening in our world or maybe, even, in our own life.   A great nation, such as the United States, is being attacked by an invisible entity and we are all at its mercy. Our streets, normally buzzing with activity and voices, are now silent.   Ghost towns have emerged where great celebrations once took place.   Wildlife has begun to explore and reclaim what once belonged to them.   What is happening in this world?   As we sit in our homes longing to regain control in our lives, we can do little things to feel more in control of our space.   For most of us in America, we live with a lot of excess.   Maybe this time given to us, is allowing us to take a look at what is important to us.   Have we been too indulgent in our lives?   Do we shop too much and fill our homes with stuff and not with the love, friendship and the ease that we need?   Do we find cleaning is overwhelming